Finding sukon everrywhere

Na jane us rat me aisa kya tha usne mujhe khi bhi na touch kia,  na koi aisa extra effort lagaya. Agar humne kuch kia us jhoole par baith kr to wo thi bhut sari baate.  Us raat ek aisa sukoon mila jo m aaj tk dhundhne ki koshish kr rhi hu.  Ab sochti hu us rat bta deti use apne sare dard shayad wo samjh leta mujhe, jo zazbat aajtk koi na samjh paya . Kyu vishwas nhi kar pati m kisi par ki apne bhi raaz sunau ki kya khel khela waqt ne mere sath. Naam to lucky rakh dia pr shayad pyaar me mamle me kismat wesi na pai mene. Dekhte u ab zindagi kis modd pr lekr jati h mujhe.  Na jane ye kese ho gya pr ek insaan jisse m behadd nafrat krti thi, jisko m apni life me 90% problems ka directly aur indirectly responsible Manti thi,  us rat mujhe  wo aisa  sukoon de gya jo koi na de paya aur be khauf hokr mene bhi use bta dia sab bachpan ki bate.
M apni feelings use bta deti shayad pr is darr se na bata payi ki "nhi wo nhi samjh paega".  Aur zaroori to nhi ki jo m uske bare me feel krti hu wo bhi whi feel krta ho. Mene kisi k sath pehli bar aise rat k 3 bje tk baate ki thi jaroori to nhi