His fragrance is what I feel everywhere

I don't know what I m feeling about u.. But I want you to be part of my happiness sadness and all other crazy activities. I am thinking about you every second.. I m noticing every detail of you.. I want to be with you sometime. I want to talk to you.. I am waiting for you.. But at the same time I am afraid that you will hurt me.. Why am I afraid to love? Why I am afraid of getting attached to you??.. Help me God.. This feeling is making me wanting him even more and more.. Even after knowing that he is lying I am believing him... Even after knowing he is not gonna make me happy I want to be with him.. I don't know whether it's love or just attachment or attraction to him??